Since you have all been so nice and caring to myself, I thought I would give the recent news update to you all. Friday I had a meeting at the hospital and the current Xray they'd taken had shown that the cancer in my left lung has gotten significantly worse in my left lung. I saw the xray and t he comparison from yesterday to a months' ago; and damn.
For some that may not know, my left lung is only one lobe; one was removed because of the position of a tumor. The cancer now from the looks of it is taking over about half of whats left. You could tell there was a lung there in the xray, but it was covered up a good percent.
my fiance and i are trying to stay strong but its just such a bitch and i keep getting kicked down again and again when it comes to getting news from them. I can now also feel one of my tumors on my left side of the chest, it scares me so much. its in my left pectoral region. my fiance was giving me a back massage today too and had felt a lot of lumps/tumors. I am in so much pain day to day that I have lost sleep because of it. THey are running around like chickens with their heads cut off trying to give/find me something strong enough to use. I was technically on (due to my personal error) 480 mg of oxycotin and it still didnt help me. The extended release too btw. Now I am on Fentanol (i know i spelt that wrong) patches with oxycodon immediate release as rescues for when the pain just gets way too bad.
IT's so terrible to know that in a couple months time, I could be dead.
For some that may not know, my left lung is only one lobe; one was removed because of the position of a tumor. The cancer now from the looks of it is taking over about half of whats left. You could tell there was a lung there in the xray, but it was covered up a good percent.
my fiance and i are trying to stay strong but its just such a bitch and i keep getting kicked down again and again when it comes to getting news from them. I can now also feel one of my tumors on my left side of the chest, it scares me so much. its in my left pectoral region. my fiance was giving me a back massage today too and had felt a lot of lumps/tumors. I am in so much pain day to day that I have lost sleep because of it. THey are running around like chickens with their heads cut off trying to give/find me something strong enough to use. I was technically on (due to my personal error) 480 mg of oxycotin and it still didnt help me. The extended release too btw. Now I am on Fentanol (i know i spelt that wrong) patches with oxycodon immediate release as rescues for when the pain just gets way too bad.
IT's so terrible to know that in a couple months time, I could be dead.
