Sorry. I dread the say I lose my buddy. Lost some when I was young, definitely sucks.
This made my eyes water, even though I lost my little girl a year and a half ago. Even though the doc recommended having her on the table, I insisted on holding her in my arms while they did what they did. I saw her eyes slowly close. It is was also the hardest day in my life. Im actually getting choked up now just talking about it. Oh man, definitely a hard time, I know what you're going through